Chapter 191
BOOK 2: CHAPTER 61
Author’s POV: Whispered Secrets
She regretted it! She regretted it more than anything else in life and Mika sure had a lot of regrets.
If Mika had a hit list of regrets, doing
at to Alexander would be at the top of her list.
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Every night, Mika had been clouded with nightmares instead of dreams. She would wake up drenched or mostly in tears but whichever way she did, she would
ll have to cry herself to sleep again.
She had to indulge in so many things to help her clear her guilt but nothing ever worked. They were all temporary fixes.
One time, she became addicted to drugs. For the number of minutes or hours that she was high, she would forget her pain and her sin but once the drugs cleared out of her system, she would be back to her guilt–ridden self.
The only person who helped her through that moment was Rowan. He never asked, never questioned her about whatever happened. She tried to tell him one time but Rowan stopped her. He said it didn’t matter. She owed Alexander her life but she owed Rowan more than that.
she
After getting over the drugs, she tried to get over her messed up life with sex. She had a whole lot of it but nothing seemed to fill the void in her heart. Even in all of these, she was grateful to be alive. That way, she could live miserably for the rest of her life as she finds a way to pay Rowan back for what happened to him and Alexander for what she did to him.
Now, she tried to get involved in art, and even though it wasn’t as effective as it was supposed to be, it was calming.
Just then, Alexander came back into her life like a storm that could wreak havoc. That morning, when Mika woke yet another nightmare, she hadn’t expected to see Alexander standing at the gates.
Neither did she expect him to stop her and talk to her after what happened between them.
up from
He’d always known where she was all along. She was sure it wasn’t a secret in the palace that Mika was with Rowan, so why now?
Why did he decide to come into their Rogue pack now and make her life even more miserable?
His presence was enough to turn her life upside down even though the thoughts of him were clearly doing that.
Mika took a deep breath as she walked into her room. The tears rushed down her face as she crumbled to the floor. She didn’t want to hurt him. She just didn’t have a choice.
On the day it happened, Mikli
had only one request.
“I have to leave,” She had told Alexander.
“What do mean you you
have to leave?” Alexander asked.
“I have to go. It’s the only way
I
Kan get over this guilt,” she cried.
“What happened to Rowan isn’t your fault. Just because of that, you can’t up and leave. You can still help him by staying here,”
“No! No! I can’t. He’s
hall alone all by himself and…” she became lost for words.
“And what? Malika. What? Do you care about him more than you care about me?” He asked.
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Mika hissed. What the fuck was he talking about?
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“No. ALEXANDER, NO! You’re my ma nothing,”
I
care about
you more than heaven and earth but I just can’t sit back and do
“Maybe that’s exactly what you should do. Sit back and do nothing,”
Mika stated at Alex in disblief. He
Just say that about his own brother now, did he?
“That was wrong. That was totally wrong of you to say. I know you and Rowan didn’t see eye to eye on things. I know you hate him but you do realize what happened to him was terrible
“What happened to him was terrible but it wasn’t you and I who did that to him,”
Alexander answered.
“Both you and I know exactly why Rowan had to leave. What did we do to help him? As his brother, how can you be so relaxed when you know exactly what happened to him?” Mika asked him.
you want me to do about it? Should I go out there and tell my father that this was “I don’t know, Mika. What the fuck do what happened? Have you ever thought for a minute what would happen to your family if words get out about what happened?
Alexander asked him.
“I appreciate you trying to keep this secret and that is why I have to leave. I have to go to him. I can’t just stay here and live as though I don’t know the truth. The guilt would kill me,”
“And what about me? What happens to me after you
leave then?”
“Can’t you come with me?”
Mika asked, tugging at his shirt.
“No! I can’t leave here. Mother believes if Rowan doesn’t come back, I’ll be next in line for the throne and she doesn’t want me to jeopardize that for anything,”
“So, you’re choosing the throne over me,”
“You’re one to talk. Look at yourself, you’re choosing Rowan over me,”
Mika shook her head. Despite knowing what happened, Alexander could still say such a thing.
“I don’t care, Alex, I’m leaving, you can come with me if you want or not. It’s really your choice but I won’t sit here and watch you take the same throne that fucked Rowan up over and over again,”
“It wasn’t the throne that messed up with him. It was your father wasn’t he? Do you think Rowan would welcome you open hands? Won’t he be filled with disgust at the sight of you?”
He was right. She had thought about that and would even be glad if Rowan would kill her out of hatred.
She picked up her bag from the floor.
“If you walk out of this place, Mika, I’ll be forced to reject you,”
“If I stay back here, you’ll lose me,”
Alexander scoffed, not believing her words. She knew there was no way he would let her go easily. She looked at the door and before she could hold the handle, Alexander had locked the door.
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“Give me the keys, Alex,” She asked gently.
“You’ll have to kill me first before you get those keys from me,”
Mika was stubborn, hotheaded and persistent and so also was Alexander. Her mother used to joke about how they could fit so easily as mate but in reality, it was a hazard.
His stubbornness got Mika mad. How could he try to stop her, despite knowing what happened to Rowan?
“Give me the keys,” She asked again.
“Why are you so desperate to go to him?” He asked. Mika could see the pain in his eyes and she understood that but nothing prepared her for what Alexander said next. “Uhn, do you love him? Are you that desperate to fuck him? is that it?”
That was the moment when everything went out of hand. They struggled for a while before Mika brought out a knife. It was just to threaten him but one thing led to another and she stabbed him.
A light knock came to her door, pulling her out of her thoughts. Mika stood up, unlocked it, and saw Gideon waiting on the other side of the door.
“Is everything okay?” Gideon asked.
Mika shook her head. “No,”
“Do you need me?”
She looked up at him. “Yes, please,”
Gideon walked in and kissed her the way she wanted so she could forget everything for the next few minutes.
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