I was confused.
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I looked at him and he put his hand on his face and laughed.
gave up and said, “I am sorry, I didn’t know my
parents were coming! I am sorry for the trouble.
I will go in and explain.”
I went to open the door, but Shawn stopped
- me.
He pulled out his phone and showed me the
camera.
Mrs. Henderson’s voice filled the air. “I love her
so much! I have always wanted her as my
daughter in law, and the dowry needs to be
888,000 dollars!”
My mom said, “Oh, she is so nice, and Shawn is
so good, we want to give you less.
Mrs. Henderson said, “No way! 168,000 doesn’t
show her how much I love her! It needs to be
888,000 dollars! I won’t stop!”
My mouth fell open, “How did this happen?”
I looked at Shawn and he had a smile.
I asked, “Why are you showing me this?”
“They are having fun! You don’t want to stop
that, do you?”
I nodded.
If she found out it was all a lie, she would be so
sad.
And if it was with Shawn, that wouldn’t be so
bad.
Shawn looked at me and said, “How much
dowry do you think is fair?”
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Why would he ask that now?
I wasn’t into playing his game, and said, “We
are at 888,000 dollars, why not round it up to a
million.”
Shawn nodded, “Okay, cool.”
He said that so smoothly.
He opened the door and took my hand, leading
me inside.
I felt weird when he held my hand.
I started imagining, what if this was all real.
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After dinner, Shawn went to the balcony to talk
on the phone.
It was quiet.
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3:22
I felt sad.
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I texted my friend, and asked: Should I tell him?
She wrote, You need to! He is cute and rich!
You never go on a date and you’re worried?
Oh. She was right.
I laid back on the sofa and started trying to
figure out how to confess.
I fell asleep.
I dreamt that Shawn picked me up.
I was on his chest and I started to be aware in
the dream.
It’s a dream, right?
I could do anything.
3:22
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I reached up and kissed him.
I was inexperienced, and he was too.
It was warm and perfect.
I was in my bed, then.
Shawn was gone, and I looked for my pillow, then I touched the abs and went to sleep.
But, it felt better than usual.
It felt like Shawn’s abs.
And my pillow started moving. I got annoyed and pinned it down.
I will not leave him alone tonight.
The next day I woke up, and it wasn’t my pillow.
It was Shawn.
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I closed my eyes.
I was dreaming.
I opened my eyes, again.
He was naked.
I didn’t want to stare, but…
He had red scratches on his chest.
I did that.
His lips were red.
I kissed him.
It wasn’t a dream.
I really made him mine last night!
He was asleep.
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I took a breath to calm my heart.
I sat up.
My abs pillow was in the trash can.
It was crammed in there. I must have hated it.
I looked at Shawn. He looked amazing even
when asleep.
I was quiet.
I should just leave him alone.
When Shawn woke up, I was trying to take my
pillow out of the trash.
He really shoved it in there.
Shawn came to stand behind me and said,
“You’re not happy with my abs?”
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3:22
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I stopped and said, “What did I do last night?”
“I am done with you.”
I was quiet.
Shawn pulled my hands off of the pillow and
said, “I like you.”
“All the stuff you did to me, was the best.”
“Don’t ever touch that pillow, touch me
instead?”
