Chapter Eighty–Nine – I Need Her More Than I Like To Admit.
Despin my offers, Louldn’t manage fall asleep. Once I slip into slumber, the nightmares commence. Somed make up and search for Alyssa, but she’s not them. The only person. I can hold accountable is meself. I let out a sigh and run my fingers through my hair. I gre in. Trying again is pointless: I’m drenched in sweat from the nightmares
I drag myself curet bed and make my wai mi a cold shower to freshen up. 1-lean in the wall and shut my eyes. When did I sort relying so heavily on having someone by my
side? Had Alessa been here. I would have slept well, I dem i stay in the shower long, pulling m prgters and a benda. Tarempi si ecclipy myself ni various thoughis, but all
maly desire is to be with Ahwa. You know what That’s
1 Em pring to do. She told me not si, but she should know I don’t die well with livening.
I grab mi car keys and wallet before making my was in the rat. 111 be there in no time. She might not be Juppi in see me, but |
will take whatever she throws my way. She will forgive me and allow me to star. She doesn’t have to be informed about the nig
but there’s a prushitay at
(arrow monade of her balding finding a parking spot. Thank God I have what Eneed is get muide. She handed me a key a couple of weeks bark at my request. Since she has the
podku muu amer binh my houw and apartmenu wh, sharuddin 1 1 have the same worn? | hope I don’t dorite her when I come in. Exege for the light in the hallway, the entire
bulding is plunged inso dirkness, h is three in the morning, everyone li asleep.
let myself into the building and rush straight in her apartment, quindi unlocking the door, Quieth. I remove my ski
before making my bay in her bedroom.
She has the hall light on. If she is by herself at home, she typically does. I open the door slightly and see her curled up in bed, fast asleep, Sejding. I pause se admire her before
wn in the eder all the bed and caress her check
Despa stirring, she do
1 wake up. 1 İran in and give her a gentle kiss on the lips.
Wan in that
shan maka medly.
bedside lamp. “Hey, braunh
What one bein l. it breakfast time already?”
No. The time in thher in the morning
Sowly sitting up, she links at me with confusion. “What are you doing here at this hour?”
“I couldn’t sleep and needed to see you
runs her fingers through her luar and logs her knees in her chest.
nightmares? Please, don’t be no me.” She whispers.
Ter, every uni 1 aced in sleep. The und une they say at bay is when you are nexi in na. If you want me to gu hamar, it is okay.
lickt het hip lightly and
and pull her
her sowards mar. Alyssa whimpers at the
sat she domain 1 want no ali ne. I mod shoosing not to prem the bajac and starcibase the slimianan. 1 capture her lips with my own, the decan‘
remam un ber hip. Alyssa’s leggers weave long my hair.
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Damn it! I wish she didn’t stop but what can I do? I respect her choice, and I would never even think aboun coercing her.
“Okay, angel. Whatever you want.
She plans a kiss on my check before turning away from me. She has not fully forgiven me yet. I am aware of this because she never manns
always cuddles into me. She needs time, something I need to give her
rarns her back on me while sleeping. She
I wrap my arm around her and draw her close to me. Her body perfectly fits in the curves of mine, I interlack our fingers and neste my face in her shoulder.
“Goodnight sweetheart Sleep well.”
“Goodnight. Wyan. I hope you can get some sleep, too,” she whispers, squeezing my hand.
Alyssa is quick to back asleep. I get lost in my thoughts, I need to find a way to make it right with her. A good starting point would be to apologize to Oliver. I’ll figure out the best marrow, I hope we can avoid any awkwardness or distance between us.
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I uke a deep breath and shut my eyes attempting to my thought for sleep to come, I’m hoping I can finally get some sleep with her beside me. Myssa is the first person who has made me feel truly secure. My parents gave it to me, too, but not in the same manner as she does.
A couple of hours of sleep is more than enough for me. I am uncertain how I feel about my need to be with Aly. It on one I’ve been familiar with over the years. I gradually begin to be overtaken by sleep. Thank God.
