My head feels full, but for the moment I can’t help but be a little excited I really do need my own space I feel a little guilty about the other locations near this territory that I had Cey look into for me. Nothing was as beautiful or private as this When I gave Cevin the address, he told me that technically the house was outside of the pack jurisdiction and that Knight is the sole owner. It’s roque temitory I wanted to ask him more information about him being a rogue but Pernicious Prince provided the kind of clarity that I needed
I am and should have been considered a rogue since birth. So are my “pops” and do is Knightly. There’s a list of laws that rogues have to follow and it’s not as intense as the pack laws Knight might be a rogue for all the wrong reasons but I feel like it’s the only way he could have been himself. A way to step away from both his father figures and the burden they both want him to carry.
“You’re a little too quiet Angel It’s making me nervous, Knightly says as we drive down to the beach house
We put everything into the car. It wasn’t much. Just the twins‘ clothes and some of my things. Freddy assured me that all of my belongings were already there ready for me to unpack. Im not sure if I’m okay with the idea of someone touching my things, but at this point I’ll take it. I need to think and I can’t think of anything better to do while piece my life together “Mommy, I don’t like my new classroom. It’s too easy” Aizen takes this moment to speak up
“I know, baby. I’m going to try to get you a better one. We’re going to have you guys take a test to see where you fit better” I look back at him.
“Why no do that first? Ayre asks.
“Well, we had to get you into school in a hurry. The year already started and our move was a little last minute
“I understand” she sighs heavily and looks out the window.
“Hey,” I reach out for her. “Are you okay? What’s wrong?”
“Nothing wrong, Mommy. I she’s struggling to get the words out
“Vous pouvez me dire n’importe quoi,” I reassure her.
“Nothing wrong with me. You’re sick,” she says softly.
“You smell different and you’re kinda scary,” Alzen adds. I turn my body completely to face them both. They’re both staring at me womedly.
e two o
of them nod and look out their windows at the
“Can we talk about this once we get to our new home?” I ask him. The
same time
I turn back around and look down at my hands because I really don’t know what the fuck I’m going to do about this. How the hell do I explain all of this to them? How much more am I going to change? It’s insane to me how much they noticed The way my son described my changes unsettled me
The house finally comes into view and I hear my baby gasp. The house has been repainted and there are some very luxurious cars on a truck parked up front. The yard to the right side has been completely changed into some kind of garage made out of darkly tinted glass
“It’s the Barbie beach house, Mommy!” she cries out, kicking the back of the driver’s seat. Knightly can not contain the laugh that comes out of him as she continues to scream out excitedly. “Daddy, hurry! Out. Please!”
“I’m coming,” he laughs all the way to her.
“Did it have to be pink?” Aizen whispers.
“This was a gift from grandma.” I tell him. “This is where D.A.D. grew up,”
His eyes light up the way they always do when he gets something he wants. My best guess is that he wants to know more about Knightly. When they began school, he was the first to question why they didn’t have a dad. Why his friends went over to their cousin’s houses and they didn’t have any.
I don’t get the chance to ask him how his first day of school went because as soon as Elliot comes out of the house he
runs over to him
“Uncle Elliot,” he laughs.
“My man,” Elliot picks him and swings him around.
I didn’t realize just how heavy my guilt was unt Successfully unlocked! 1 on my own was the best thing for me. For us It always felt ugly telling them that there were them.
n he was older, I’d tell him the truth. Both of
-It was for the best. I shiver when she makes herself known. I forget she’s there sometimes
“You have to think that. Aren’t we the same person?” I whisper.
1/2
-Person as in this vessel Yes. Not the same
“You’re a different consciousness? Doesn’t that mean I developed another personality? I laugh
I don’t understand your confusion. –
“Humans don’t have that unless they are unwell in their heads
We are not human. We never have been. I have always been here Watching Sleeping –
With that, I am officially freaked out
“Mommy, let’s go,” Ayre points at the stairs that lead up to the front door. She takes my hand and leads the way up with the guys following behind us. I press my lips together when she lets go and taps her feet super fast excitedly. “It goes around”
“Ayrie,” Knight calls after her when she takes off in a run, giggling, but she’s off
I take his hand so he doesn’t follow. I quickly take my phone out to record her coming around the other side. The sound of her little shoes pounding away at the wood comes first before she runs out with a huge grin on her face
She screeches out excitedly. I don’t understand the words coming out of her mouth, but I know she’s so happy that it goes all the way around like the terrace of the penthouse above us back in Paris She’s always wanted to go up there, but the mean old lady that lives there once threw a cat from the terrace and I was always too afraid to ask
A warm peaceful feeling floods my chest. I place my hand over it knowing that it’s the thing inside of me. She’s very happy at the moment and I understand what she means: we’re the same body but not the same person. While I’m very happy about this, there’s just so much to be worried about.
“Come inside,” Maria opens the door laughing. “I just saw her run around the house screaming. I have a video.
“Grama–shark! You learned, Aynie rushes over to her and pats her hand. “Good girl,”
“Ayrie,” I scold her.
“Issok. She tell me and Auntie Tess, Good girl. It’s a nice word, mommy she even waves her hand in front of her defensively. I open my mouth to try to explain the etiquette behind it when Mr. Knightly appears in the doorway.
“It is a nice word, princess. However, Grama–shark is not a girl anymore. She’s an old-” Maria stomps her foot getting his toes. His nostrils flare as he struggles to shake off the stomp of his life.
“Big girls say it to small girls,” I say crouching down to pull her to me. I lift her and tuck her into my side, needing the contact. “Because big girls are usually the teachers, baby. It’s okay for grama to say that to you and Tess,”
“Okay,” she giggles and then points at her grandfather. “Pop–pop has a big ouchie for being a meanie. Shame. Shame. Pop-
pop.”
“How “Knightly looks over at me with a glare. “How does she know that?”
“She watched your kid special on Belly Rubs. She’s been a Toxic Rose Thoms fan her entire life, I laugh.
“She played that episode a gazillion times. Probably why you went platinum,” Alzen adds,
“Do you even know what that means?” Elliot asks.
“One hundred fifty billion streams. Yeah. I know how streaming works. Mommy has a lot of super smart friends. Ayries is the perfect camera man. We are going to be super famous,” he crosses his arms over his chest.
“That’s right. We get all the Stitch toys we want,” Ayrie agrees. “Even the pink ones,”
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